Messed Up All
I can see into your eyes, the pain
they say it all.
the frustration ended up all in a deep pain giving a numb feeling.
not happened once, not happened twice but innumerable times.
me, I saw you this way,
all there in front of me,
your eyes they say it all...
I don't know what to say,
seeing you this way.
guilt gathers all around me,
killing me from within.
they say I do it intentionally
but the heart says no, it listens to me.
but mind does it all
logic is word <<think logically think>>
I don't understand myself
how do I forget things.
why can't I express it all.
I don't do it intentionally.
every word lies in my mind.
disturbing me,
since months I have lost myself
as they say <<did I turn psychic?>>
keeping things within ,
for the reason I didn't say ,for things <why am I?>
everything is killing me,
since months
people around me realize
don't know how to react
don't know how to convince
kills me, have I lost it ! why can't I rem, why do I have to think?
scared, to see it all ,
when you shut your eyes even though for seconds,
those lines over your forehead
the pain, the fear to run from all
alls visible, I can see all.
guilt gathers all around me,
killing me from within,
every time u blink.
Each time you blink or close your eyes to runaway.
I die each time I seeing you die.
all because of me...
chanting prayers even doesn't help at all
it turns into a script murmured
I lied one, I lied two
pleading one, pleading two
tired of all
I don't wish to talk any more,
even though I try ,
something stops me.
seeing happiness I count
how long does it last.
dying for the pursuits of happiness
nothing comes in my mind
seeing you this way want to kill myself kill myself for all
all because of me...
Contributed By:
Deepika Kaur
deepikadheeman@gmail.com
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