GOD - THE ESSENCE OF MY LIFE - Spiritual Experience

Recalling the bygone days, I have realized that GOD is the essence of my life and without HIM my life has no existence or meaning.

I had completed my post graduation in English literature and hailing from a middle class family getting employment was the next big issue. As I had no professional experience so finding a suitable job was a herculean task. I applied for the post of a teacher (English) as per my qualifications but all efforts went futile. Staying and home jobless and seeing my father toiling day and night to support the family filled me with a sense of guilt.

One day while going through the newspaper I came across a job vacancy in a school. As my daily chore, I picked up my resume and other documents and landed at the mentioned address. When I reached there I was shocked to see the state of the school, what you can say as a cluttered and messy environment. Nothing seemed to appeal to my senses neither the staff nor the students and their behavior. Somehow taking control of my dislikes I appeared before the panel of committee members. After a brief discussion they offered me a job as an English teacher with a meager compensation of rupees two thousand per month. I was bewildered. At the back of my mind I visualized helping my father, but personally I just wanted to escape that atmosphere.

Somehow I reconciled with the management and got ready to join the very next day, but my heart was brimmed with disappointment. I came home with a false smile and told my parents about the recruitment. It seemed as if their faces had an expression of content which was more valuable to me than my personal likes. So next day started a series of distress and ordeal as expected. On my way to school there was temple ,daily while passing through that temple I prayed whole heartedly to God that “Is this what I deserve?,” as my gold medal and merit degrees never approved of my job in that vicinity. Many times I poured out my heart before god and cried bitterly but then thought this was my destiny.

One day one of my college time friend came to my school .She met me and told that she was working with some newspaper and had come to that school for some coverage. Finding me in despair she asked me my problem. I narrated her the whole story, don’t know why and how. Suddenly she told me that there was a job vacancy in an upcoming school and that if I would like to go with her there. I told her “right now I have no documents”. She said that we could just give it a try. We went there and I was asked to fill up a form and appear for an interview.